While watering the garden this afternoon, I saw a vision of myself hanging on a tree. I very rarely contemplate suicide these days but when it happens I ask Jesus my Lord and King and Saviour to hold me and never let me go. Jesus died for my sins, including my sins of self-harm and self-murder attempts. Jesus rose from the dead. I am saved and I have hope in life here and after.
Bringing my suffering to the cross and leaving it there has helped me miraculously over the past 10 months — a thousand thousand times better than years of psychotherapy. Besides, it was because of maltreatment in therapy with the psychologist Kit Balane that I started hurting myself and trying to kill myself.
In retrospect, the idea of hanging as a way to kill myself was influenced by suicide reports by The Bohol Chronicle. Their reports were shockingly irresponsible. I began complaining about the reporting in 2018-2019 when suicide rates were extremely high, but no one took notice. In October 2021, I wrote a letter to the editor of the newspaper, which, after a few months, seem to have prompted mental health organizations in Bohol to finally issue a statement regarding responsible suicide reporting.
I have placed my letter on-line as a resource for you. I want you to use it as a guide for your friends working in the media. If you find careless handling of suicide in your newspapers, please use my letter to help you or your organization in crafting a letter that will bring awareness to this problem. https://fatimalasay.com/life-is-worth-living/