WOMAN WITH BROKEN HEART AND SQUASH, 2022
Fatima Lasay
11.7 W x 16.5 H inches, acrylic on watercolor paper 200gsm
The woman is in the midst of the experience of a complex emotion. A black bird has flown away with her aged broken heart. Another black bird is bringing her a small unripe squash. A third black bird stands proudly on her head. The squash flower inadvertently decorates her hair. There is a young pig in front of her. The pig has its arms raised as if protecting the woman from something. There is another pig in the distance walking off the footpath. It is a brown boar with black spots. The plants on the left are native species: Niyog-Niyogan (Ficus pseudopalma) and Rimas (Artocarpus altilis). The plants on the right are exotic ornamentals: Red Ginger (Alpinia purpurata) and Aglaonema. The background shows the Chocolate Hills of Bohol.
I finally quit therapy after Kit Balane said, “Fatima, you need to be touched”, then he sat next to me, held my wrist, closed his eyes and took a deep breath. After a minute or so he started talking about religion. Several months later, he was blaming, shaming, threatening and making false diagnostic claims because I filed an ethics complaint against him.
There is a reason why so much suffering happened to me. When I look at my paintings, I understand this somehow. God heals the brokenhearted and He binds up their wounds.